13 May 2018

How I Rediscovered My Self-Belief

For a while now I’ve felt unsure of what it is that I actually want to do with my life or why I really even need to choose.

Once upon a time I was a very confident little girl with big goals and great execution plans. I was going to ‘be’ anything I wanted to be.

I became scared of pursing my goals, I started to doubt myself. It was more than just a fear of the process though. Being creative and academic is both a gift and a curse. I’m not going to sit here and whine about being multi-talented (because I am, and I am not afraid to own that any more) but sometimes I have thought about how much simpler life may be if I wasn’t expected to be such a higher achiever.

I am lucky because I come from a family who I know would support me whether I chose to be whatever I chose to be whether building a business, pursuing a career or a stay at home mum. That’s because each of those roles have their equal importance in the world and getting higher grades does not make anyone more entitled or worthy. It does, however, open a lot of doors. And sometimes when there are lots of doors open you don’t quite know which to shut and which to leap through.

On morning I just laid on my bed and reflected on my life, what direction I what to take. Asked myself the hard questions. I stood in front of my mirror and told myself “this image wasn’t who I am”,

I only focus on the positive now, detox my life and got rid of anything or anyone who brought toxic vibes around me.

I don’t quite know where I will end up but I feel at peace with that now – choosing wonder over fear.

I feel fulfilled by the level of creativity in my life, but also by the tasks that keep my brain wired at a million miles an hour on a day to day basis. I’ve began to set my alarm earlier and earlier because I want to get up in the morning.

I feel a real sense of calm at knowing that deep down I have the confidence to run with the endless possibilities and do what makes my soul happy.

I’ve started to believe in myself. Really, truly have faith in my own abilities and in the talents that make me special ~ because we are all special.